Getting all back
Today, I went back to see Dr. F who commended me on how well I’m taking care of my skin (she’s talking about the skin on my breast, not my face…that’s the same as it ever was!) She wants to continue seeing me tuesdays, and I suppose that in a few weeks she’ll set me loose on my own, to go back and figure my life out again…what was it I was doing with my time before cancer became my full-time job? Oh yeah, I was a nurse, I was a student, I was a wife, etc.
I was cruising the youtube…and I saw this and got a lump in my throat.
That’s not me, but it might as well have been. I lost most of my eyelashes (the gorgeous long ones I never appreciated until they were gone) and most of my eyebrows, though, I had plenty to spare, I did have a few bald spots on my eyebrows that George kept insisting he didn’t notice, even when I was pointing to the bald spots.
It’s going to be about a year til what I have looks like a short hair style. I look at this, and look forward to time going by…and saying goodbye to the wigs.
I’m so exhausted. I can’t imagine going back to work for now, and I wonder when they’ll want me to return. I’m thinking of contacting my Neurologist and asking him about Multiple Sclerosis and radiation therapy, and rehabing…maybe he’d be willing to give me a bit of an extension on the going back to work thing. I think people think it’s like when you work at a desk all day, how you can “take it easy” or have “restricted duties” (did I mention I’m an ICU nurse? my patients are 300 lbs. sedated, combative, jail patients from the county in shackles sometimes…the ONE orderly we have for the whole hospital, ICU and ER falls asleep somewhere and disappears all night long, so it’s not an easy thing for me to “take it easy” while at work.)
Anyway, I’m off to the dentist today, because you can’t see a dentist while all this chemo and radiation stuff is going on and I’m long overdue.
Then I have to make an appointment with my eye doctor, because in the last 3 months, my vision has declined tremendously (I didn’t have a lot to spare, actually, being nearly blind as a bat when I went into this.) They tell me there’s a decline in vision after treatment…they tell me this NOW, not before treatment.
Thanks.
That’s good to know AFTER the FACT.
(sigh)
